Probably one of the most compelling interviews in Fashion this year, here’s Charlie Rose grilling the legend after his 2 years of exile. John breaks down his drinking, work pressures, blackouts, and bullied childhood.

Galliano also describes his meticulous research on Rudolf Nureyev for his last collection before the “incident” in a bizarre explanation of his hate rants. You’re going to have to watch for yourself. Prepare to cringe, but ultimately feel closer to Galliano — for better or for worse.